Like a Box of Chocolates...

In a world where trying to get a job is so competitive everyone, including myself feel its neccessary to have a resume packed full of experience. When you graduate you know that most of you will have the same level of experience so it's the extra things that put you just slightly above others that is going to land you that job.

When I graduate a year from now I want to be the person who secures a job. I want to be a person who gets a job in at least half a year of graduating. So the question is do I spend the summer working my butt off doing two internships? Double jobs, double the experience and knowledge? Or...do I focus on one internship, give it my all and spend my days off enjoying my summer?

If you know me, you know that I am not one to be relaxed. My mind is always constantly jumping ahead and worrying about the future, school. Part of me want to let myself relax and enjoy my last summer before heading into "the work force" because everyone always tells me you have your whole life to work, enjoy yourself now. As of now I feel like I probably will take there advice, relax and have fun. But still in the back of my head I equate relaxing to laziness.

This is something that's been on my mind lately and I just felt the need to type it out.

What worries me the most is that I like to have control over things, but it when it comes to the futures that's simply impossible. You never know what will happen or where your going to be, there are just too many factors to account for. So all you can do is try to make all the right choices and all the right decisions and work hard and hope that things will work out right.

Like....its like a box of chocolates...you never know what your going to get.

Valentine's Day Highlight

(Kina Grannis Video playing...)

Love I don't those things,

I don't need no ring

I don't need anything....

Roommate: (interrupted mid song) SHOOT I need those things...

Me: BAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH (while clapping for emphasis)

Roommate: I NEED a ring

Me: BHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHA (next 5 minutes)

Dear Roommmate,

I am soo glad I live with you. So many good time, good laughs and late nights chatting away.

Happy Valentine's Day. You will get your ring soon enough, I'm sure of it ;)

Love, D

prompted by: roommate

DROP the TUDE

HOW you say something can say almost as much as the words that are spoken.

HOW you say something can completely change the meaning of an otherwise neutral sentence.

Take for example....

A: Can I use your pen?

B1: Sure!

B2: Sure...

B3: Sure.

The first gives the impression that you don't mind at all and are glad to lend someone a pen. B2 gives the impression that you don't really want to let them use the pen, but are being polite. B3 is short, giving the impression of an equally short attitude. It gives the implication that this person is mad at you for some reason and you have no idea why.

You see...so just remember THE WAY YOU SAYING SOMETHING, how fast, short, long and the intonation that it is delivered with says A LOT. Be aware of that and make sure how you say things are giving off the impression that you mean to....

Remember there are always AT LEAST 2 ways to say something if not more. Know how you want to be perceived by others and how you want them to interpret your speech and SPEAK ACCORDINGLY. Because you never know someone might just think your the most selfless person in the world when all you really want to do is kill them OR someone might just think your some mean butt witch when really inside you had the best of intentions.

prompted by: people with attitude problems

don't just give TO GIVE . . .

Is there such thing as complete and utter selflessness? Is there such a thing as just being nice to be nice or to put it in one word, altruism?

When you see someone who needs help, a friend you needs a helping hand, you do it because your a nice person.

When you see something a person like and buy it for them as a gift or when you happen to stumble along something a friend has been searching for and get it for them, you do it out of friendliness.

Right?

But my question is...is it always that simple, that pure? Is there never that tinge, that feeling that yes you do it because your nice, friendly and a good person but also you do it out for praise or respect even?

Maybe you don't so something because you seek praise, but be honest, when you give someone a gift and they just take it without saying thank you, doesn't it feel weird? Doesn't it feel almost as if they are implying they expected you to do what you did or give them what you did? It feels like there are unappreciative? The same goes for if you did someone a favor and they don't seem to show even the slightest gratitude. It's times like these when I question is it that I do things because I want the praise, thanks, the extra boost of morale....or is it just that when I don't get a thanks or a hug or a smile SOMETHING, that it FEELS as if they deserved it.

It's hard to tell, and of course I'd like to say the latter is true, but who knows. I have two points, one from the giving end and the other for the receiving end. For the GIVER if you ever do anything or give anything to someone do it because YOU want to regardless of how you think they'll react to it. Do it because by doing so, you think it will benefit them or make them happy in some way. And remember that people aren't always as expressive as you like and may not show how much they appreciate what you did or like what you have them. Basically don't get caught up in trying to understand what is going on in their head because that'll just drive you crazy. All you can do is control your actions and your thoughts. For the RECEIVER realize that it is hard for people to be intuitive and realize that givers often had you in mind. Be grateful that some one thought to do something for you or buy something for you, even if it isn't something you wanted or something you really asked for. It's the thought that counts right? So if anything remember to give a polite thank you or a smile because sometimes that really makes all the difference.

In the spirit of the holidays a time to cherish time with friend and family and lets me a honest a time of consumerism remember don't just give to give but give for a purpose and with thought and remember to always have a thank you stored a way just in case.

prompted by: holiday shopping

You get me.

"I'm a little left of center. I'm a little out of tune. Some say I'm a little paranormal. So I just bend their spoon. Who wants to ordinary in a crazy mixed up world. I don't care what they're saying as long as I'm your girl.

You get me, when nobody understands you come and take a chance..."

How ideal would it be to have someone who you can turn to and just GETS YOU, someone who takes all your craziness, weirdness, awkwardness and just see it as being normal -- being you.

You hear relationships like these in songs, you see it in movies, but does it really exist out there?

How great would it be to find that ONE person in the world who seriously knows YOU, knows how to cheer you up when your down, knows exactly when and what to say something and when to just let you be. As an optimist, I really do believe that that ONE does exist who just GETS YOU. It might take a while for these lyrics to become evident in my life because I am a very weird, childish and serious ball of craziness but I'm still young...ish and I have time.

prompted: Michelle Branch song

Parental love

I love my parents :) Plain and simple. There is nothing to contemplate here. I am really really fortunate to have such great parents who...

1. are there to help me whenever I need it
2. give me freedom and don't smother me at all. they let me do my own thing
3. always supportive
4. allowed me so many great opportunities, such as traveling to so many different places

It is so easy to take for granted what you have. Which is why it's important for me acknowledge every once in a while that I am fortunate to have parents like them.

Happy Anniversary Mama and Dada.

prompted by: parents anniversary party/slideshow

I am...

I am. Who are you?

Have you ever wondered when people think of "Your Name" what immediately comes to mind?

For myself, for those who know me I think what comes to mind is:

Dianna is artistic, creative and talkative.

What has made me come to this conclusion is my parents are having a celebration party for their anniversary and my mother asked me if to judge the costume contest and give a toast.

It makes me really happy to think that is how I come of as. Sometimes I wish that I was more street smart, more independent, more efficient, more knowledgeable in math/science. I could literally go on and on. But what I realized is...everyone is different and everyone has their own unique qualities about them that make them memorable even marketable.

As the saying goes. If your given lemons make lemonade.

Be proud of who you are. Embrace what you are great at (and if you think you aren't great at anything, you do, your just are thinking within a box). Don't let others views or definitions of "success" or "intelligence" hinder or bring you down. Define what those two words are for yourself.

I've gone on a bit of tangent but yes. To sum it up. Who are you? Be proud of that. And EMBRACE IT!

prompted by: mother dearest <3